Feeling anxious is not synonymous with distrust or relying on our own strength. Actually, allowing ourselves to feel our anxiety (or any difficult emotion) leads us to acknowledging our need for God and opens us up to receive His care and kindness. In allowing ourselves to feel our difficult feelings, we trust that God is big enough to walk with us through them.
Sending compassion to you, friend, as you open yourself up to difficult (and maybe new) emotional experiences and wait for His care and kindness.
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